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nicsdailydiary. No filter,  just real talk.
It doesn't matter what you're recovering f

No filter, just real talk. It doesn't matter what you're recovering from, grief, mental health setbacks, addiction or surgery, upwards progress may seem slow or non existent but it does happen. Photo on the left is 8 weeks post surgery, a swollen and misshapen leg. A leg I was told was normal by medical professionals and to just rest. I refused to accept that answer. I talked to people, did research and started my own therapy to recovery. In my head though, my leg still looked like that. Photo on the right is today, 20 weeks post surgery. It's very different. Never let anyone tell you that what you are feeling is in your head, or that everything is normal. You know yourself best. Never settle for an answer that you arent happy with. Fight for yourself. #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #anxiety #surgery #recovering #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness

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nicsdailydiary. It's 9:30pm on a Sunday night. I should be asleep. I spent this weeken

It's 9:30pm on a Sunday night. I should be asleep. I spent this weekend focusing on me. I went to bed early, slept in, went on rainy walks in nature (cue picture), worked out, ate nutrient dense food and spent a lot of time chilling. I should be super relaxed and ready for the week ahead...except I'm not. Right now I'm sitting in bed trying to keep a panic attack at bay. I can feel my heart racing, I can feel my blood rushing through my veins, I can feel my temperature rising and I can feel tears burning my eyes. I can't tell you why I feel like this because I dont know. It just happens sometimes. Is it because I had a terrible week last week? Maybe. Am I scared of a repeat? Maybe. Is it because strangers saw my surgical scars this week and gave me that "look"? Maybe. Is it because I'm just exhausted? Maybe. There are a lot of maybes but I don't know what's a certainty. All I know is that I've got to keep breathing. #myjourney #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #anxiety #justkeepbreathing

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nicsdailydiary. Anyone else ever looked down at their leg and got a fright because the

Anyone else ever looked down at their leg and got a fright because they forgot they had massive scars? Anyone? No? Just me? Ok then. Also ignore weird colour bit on the side, it's my phones shadow!! #myjourney #scars #scar #recovery #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #surgery #mademecry #insecure

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nicsdailydiary. One of the October challenges at @upfitness_ott is a sunrise challenge

One of the October challenges at @upfitness_ott is a sunrise challenge which is you need to get outside within 1 hour of waking. Totally grateful for this challenge because without it, I would be missing epic sunrises like this. Happy Tuesday. #myjourney #mindfulness #lifeonmyterms #soultribe #positivevibes #anxiety #improvingmyself #selfcare #selflove #growthmindset #sunrise #wellingtonnz #beautiful #gratitude #grateful

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nicsdailydiary. I'm unsure where I'm going to go with this post so bear with me.
2019

I'm unsure where I'm going to go with this post so bear with me. 2019 hasn't been my year. It doesnt matter how much I buy into the woo woo good vibes universe and all that jazz, it just hasn't worked out for me. The studio that I used to attend started showcasing this October challenge they were doing and I felt such a strong pull to it that I signed up. Let's remember that I had major leg surgery 4 months ago so signing up was a huge terrifying deal for me but the challenge is a mix of physical and mental tasks so it seemed doable. Well today I went back to the barre for the first time in well over a year and oh my goodness it felt amazing. I felt happy, I felt free, I felt like I was going to die but that's my now untrained body speaking. Anyway, I got through the class pain free and high vibing and ready to take on the rest of the year. Tonight, I'm just sitting here, legs up, minding my own business and behind my scar cramps. Not your normal calf or foot cramp but a huge cramp that took over my entire leg and rendered me unable to walk or move. I've since spent the last 2 hours in tears. Tears of pain and tears of pure worthlessness. I want nothing more than to be physically and mentally healthy but it's so hard. I just need to remember that nothing that is worth it is easy right? I'm not giving up. Watch me complete this challenge. #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #anxiety #surgery #recovering #workout #barre #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #imtrying

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nicsdailydiary. Moments like these mean everything. I spent the weekend in Auckland wi

Moments like these mean everything. I spent the weekend in Auckland with my grandparents, people who I generally take for granted as always being there. Reality is they wont be so I need to grasp the opportunities while they are here. #love #grandparents #gratitude #specialmoments #family

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nicsdailydiary. Yesterday was shit. We lost our beautiful Chino bunny. Today, someone

Yesterday was shit. We lost our beautiful Chino bunny. Today, someone beautiful sent me flowers. The thing is, I don't know who. But that's ok because regardless, I'm absolutely grateful for incredible amazing people in my life, even if I don't know who you are. #thankyou #mystery #beautiful #flowers

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nicsdailydiary. Do Tuesdays get better? #dakota #tuesday

Do Tuesdays get better? #dakota #tuesday

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nicsdailydiary. Happy birthday to my 3rd born child!! #instadog #doggo #dogsofinstagra

Happy birthday to my 3rd born child!! #instadog #doggo #dogsofinstagram #happybirthday

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nicsdailydiary. Change of season, change of mindset. I had one hellish winter. I had s

Change of season, change of mindset. I had one hellish winter. I had surgery on both my legs, I reacted to morphine, I couldnt walk, I had a long recovery ahead of me. I got knocked out by a virus for a month. I've had a set back on my recovery which is causing more pain. I've had many other absolute mental challenges that I haven't exactly come out the best from. Dont get me wrong winter also brought some greatness but it is over shadowed. Tomorrow is a new season and only 4 months until the end of the year and I'm determined to make something of those last 4 months. I'm taking life lessons from my dog. I will always be happy to see the ones I love. I will forgive quickly and love unconditionally. I will always be up for something fun and I will know that just because 1 bad thing happened, it doesnt mean everything is bad. #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #anxiety #improvingmyself #selfcare #selflove #growthmindset #blog #blogger #nzblogger #personaldevelopment #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #lifelessons #bemorelikeadog #instadog #dogsofinstagram

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nicsdailydiary. 2 weeks of burgers is fun and all until you no longer fit your pants.
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nicsdailydiary. Growing up, I'd watch all the talent shows on tv and just be fascinate

Growing up, I'd watch all the talent shows on tv and just be fascinated by the dance crews and would dream about being part of one. Dreams do come true friends. I spent the weekend dancing with the most incredible group of females who are all part of the amazing @shutupanddancenz We were part of a collaboration with a local brewery and helped to promote their new disco beers as part of Beervana 2019. I have had an epic weekend and cannot wait for more good times!! #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #dance #shutupanddance #stoptalkingstartsweating #beervana2019 #dancecrew #weekendvibes #happyplace

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nicsdailydiary. This face...this is the girl who has completed 6 hours of dance rehear

This face...this is the girl who has completed 6 hours of dance rehearsals in the last 2 days despite being sick for the last 4 days and only being 9 weeks post double leg surgery. OH MY FUCKING GOD IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!!!!! Yes I had to yell that. No tall poppy syndrome here...I'm going to celebrate myself and my achievements and will shout them to anyone who will listen! How can I expect others to be proud if I dont show how proud I am of me?? #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #anxiety #surgery #recovering #365daysofpositivity #mentalhealth #lifeonmyterms #lightworker #goaldigger #mentalhealthawareness #selfcare #selflove #growthmindset #blog #blogger #nzblogger #dance #soproud #iloveme

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nicsdailydiary. Mondays ending right!! I've been focusing so hard on a positive mindse

Mondays ending right!! I've been focusing so hard on a positive mindset that the good keeps coming. Today I got home to a surprise parcel at the door from my sister in law. Thanks @j_l_ash I'd been having a rough Monday but this totally improved it.

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nicsdailydiary. How do you define success?

I define it has having so much fun and act

How do you define success? I define it has having so much fun and actually enjoying your life that you forget that you even have a cellphone and that social media even exists. That was me this weekend. Had so much fun doing things like go-karting, mini golfing, arcading, eating good food, playing board games while celebrating this girls 18th birthday. It was definitely living life in real time rather than through a screen. #myjourney #mindfulness #lifeonmyterms #soultribe #positivevibes #anxiety #improvingmyself #selfcare #selflove #growthmindset #blog #blogger #nzblogger #personaldevelopment #livinglife #success #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #weekendvibes #celebrations

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nicsdailydiary. How good is a workout 8 weeks post surgery?? Okay yes a scaled down wo

How good is a workout 8 weeks post surgery?? Okay yes a scaled down workout but a workout none the less!! My body feels great and my mind feels even better. Taking every win I get. #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #recovery #workout #fitness #fitspo #blogger #nzblogger #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness #scar #postsurgery

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nicsdailydiary. So I woke up and publicly declared that today was going to be a great

So I woke up and publicly declared that today was going to be a great day. I intentionally set out to have a day with good vibes only. I had a surgeons appointment this morning with 70% good news. I'm improving and can start to increase my movement which is amazing. I also have nerve damage and it will take about a year to find out if the surgery worked or not and also a year for the swelling and pain to stop. Focus on the good news Nicole. Then I'm sitting doing my work and I get a knock on the door and a surprise 100% unexpected delivery of beautiful flowers from a friend. How good! Release the shit and receive the epic! #myjourney #healthjourney #healthymindhealthybody #inspiration #mindfulness #gratitude #compartmentsyndrome #chronicexertionalcompartmentsyndrome #anxiety #improvingmyself #selfcare #selflove #growthmindset #blog #blogger #nzblogger #personaldevelopment #recovering #flowers #goodvibes #smile #itsagreatday

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